Day #252: Kameelputs, SA: Borderline Unstable

It truly amazes me how drastically my mood and attitude can change from one day to the next, much less in one day or one hour. It's just insane.

I have only God and myself to rely on here. Everyone else seems borderline unstable, if not definitely emotionally unavailable. HA-listen to me chatter on like the mentally sound. Ironic.

The wind is blowing crazy outside but I feel safe and comforted here, in this small space of mine. Wish Dale was lying next to me now. I am so grateful to finally see the light-of his face, his love, our future-you name it and I'm blessed by it. God is so great. Life is so sweet. I just can't seem to say enough about either.

I got such goodies today. Makes me wonder why I didn't feel that love when I was home. It always comes when I require it. It's the best thing about love and friendship and all things good and real and honest-they always surface when we need them most. How marvelous!

Traleathea is hiding from me and I don't care. I just can't keep doing this. I'm not doing her any favors by babying her. She'll let me know when she's ready. I mustn't push or pull her any way.

I feel guilty about Katy, another PCV. Her heart is good, but her intentions are all wrong. I hope she is not alone on the holidays, that it all works out that we can be together. I ask God for the grace to handle the situation Christian-like, despite all opposition.