Day #273: Kameelputs, SA: Who I Am or Who I Was

I've had a horrible day! It really wasn't so bad, but my worst in quite some time. This job really sucks sometimes. I really had to convince myself not to walk away. Peace Corps sucks. Thanks for the freaking support! Couldn't do it without you. Oh wait...what a joke!

Dale is calling tonight. What a relief. I really need to calm this storm to a manageable level before he has to. I've been so self-absorbed lately, I'm embarrassed. He's a darling. I'm sure he'll forgive my selfish ways. Just wish I was who I am or am who I was. Either way, I'm definitely not myself. I just need Jesus.

I'm going to dream of Dale wildly. This day has been too long and my body is too tired, my spirit too weakened. I ask God to replenish me as I dream sweetly, to keep me safe from roaches and harm. (No electricity tonight.)

Let it happen, Let it go. Breathe it in, Breathe it out.