Day #106: Kameelputs, SA: Goodbye, Good Riddance!

Okay, two months have passed , but I'm going to try to make this a habit.

I love Jesus! Did you know it? I mean, some moments-okay, days!-I don't know up from down and why I chose down, but that's where God wants me, right here in this moment.

ACK! I swear there's something rather large in the bag across the room. I can hear it breathing. You know, this place really can freak me out. I have such an imagination. It runs wild!

So Brian, the PCV who lived closest, is gone and I'm almost relieved. Underdogs and lost boys tend to gravitate towards me, no doubt another one of God's little schemes. God can be so tricky like that! I wonder if I did wrong by Brian, if he would have stayed if I was enough. He brought it to my attention just minutes before he said his final farewell (as farewells often seem to be) and left my life forever.

It all works out in the end, that's what I keep telling myself. Can't help but to wonder how much impact and control we really have. I'm guessing very little, but I'm so good at torturing myself with all the little ways it hasn't added up yet. Thank you, my Messiah. You're the reason...that's all I need to know. The rest is details.